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March 27, 2005
A pregnant pause
Sorry for last week's enigmatic complaints about my "medical condition." The work trouble and dental issues are pretty straightforward, but I may as well confess the medical condition: I'm pregnant.
We've been hoping for this for quite a while, so it's great news for us. Unfortunately, my body isn't taking the news quite as well. I've been so exhausted for the last few weeks that I can barely keep up with really essential tasks like paying bills. Every tiny quotidian task I accomplish requires sheer force of will just to overcome the sleepiness, bone-weariness, and intermittent queasiness that swamp me all day. It's a miracle that I can even get to work; it takes about three times the effort now to accomplish half the work, and I'm hiding the saltines I've been nibbling on because I'm afraid my more savvy coworkers will correctly deduce that nibbling on saltines all day = morning sickness.
I haven't told anyone at work; in fact, I haven't told anyone except EtherHub, my dentist, and you guys. I'm past 35, which makes this a "high-risk" pregnancy, and I'm afraid I'll miscarry. Last week my OB/GYN told me my progesterone was lower than it should be, and that's not a great sign. So I'm postponing the announcement until I start to show unequivocally and I can't hide it any more.
I debated whether I should even mention the situation on my blog. At first, I thought I wouldn't; I did say I wanted to keep my personal life mostly out of EtherHouse. But I felt whatever readers remain should know the reason for my silence.
With any luck, this pernicious, malevolent tiredness should pass towards the end of the first trimester or sooner. Till then, I hope you'll understand if I'm uncharacteristically silent sometimes. Greedy Gus (my nickname for the li'l bugger) apparently needs virtually all my energy at the moment, the ungrateful little parasite.
Posted by EtherPundit at March 27, 2005 09:53 PM Category: Personal stories
Comments
Mazl tov!
Posted by: Jeffrey S. Haemer at March 27, 2005 09:59 PM
Congrats to the three of you! My prayers for a healthy and successful baby.
Posted by: MrEd at March 28, 2005 02:02 PM
I've looked for you every day and your back with wonderful news! Your age is nothing these days. My sister had her son at age 38. He's now 7 and runs rings around them. She's 45 and her husband is 51. She loves it when she's mistaken for his grandmother in stores! If you want to risk running off all your readers with baby talk, I'll still stay. You won't be able to resist talking about it, now the cat's out of the bag. Your world just got very small. I mean that in a good way. (So indulge yourself in guilt-free, stream-of-consciousness, hormone- driven, love-of-life, gut-spilling preg-blogging.)
Posted by: Mary at March 29, 2005 12:11 AM
Congrats!
Posted by: Karol at March 30, 2005 11:09 PM
Thanks, everyone! I really appreciate the good wishes.
Mary, you're right -- in some ways, my world has already gotten very small. But then, that may be just a side effect of my pregnancy-induced illness. At the moment, I don't even have the energy to read a blog, let alone write one. I've mostly been staggering into bed as soon as I'm done with dinner.
Every so often I'll feel all right for an hour or so, and I'll remember: "Oh, yeah -- this is the real me!" But I always sink back into my queasy torpor.
They say it gets better. It's got to; I can't last 8 months like this.
And thanks for the vote of confidence about my age. I'm feeling particularly ancient right about now, so it helps.
As for the stream-of-consciousness, gut-spilling preg-blogging (new term? I like it).... we'll see. If it happens, it happens. (I see my male readers cringing in dread already at the very thought!)
Posted by: EtherPundit at March 31, 2005 06:49 AM
Congratulations! So did you decide on a schooling option?
Posted by: someone at April 7, 2005 11:42 PM